Oh yes I'm on the hamster wheel........

As Ryan walked by my desk this morn he spewed out the usual morning greetings.....He chased it with A phrase I absolutely <3 though.......Just living the dream....Sara.  To that I replied, you know it.....I'm strutting on that hamster wheel of monotony with my am sports radio in one ear and a phone receiver glued to the other.  Those simple words got me to thinking.....How much could I really do if I applied myself.  I know my pain threshold is 10 fold of most souls.....whether it be physical or emotional discomfort.  I also know I store more knowledge than the average person.....I rarely share my info though.  I just pretend I don't know the info that is flowing out of someones mouth.  I'm sure I'm coming off as a cocky lil ass right about now and I'm certainly not claiming to know everything.  I know stupid random things.....Yet........I cant remember things that would make me successful in the "boys club".....Hence the lack of ambition to apply myself.  I need to start telling myself if you learn this.....you can fly to Africa,Bali,Fiji,Antarctica,Chile.......ANYWHERE......Take all the pictures you want if you just apply your damn brain to things that will make you all the money you want. I want to defeat the barrier of my on mind......I just need to figure out how to trick myself into doing it ;).  Ahhhhhhh yeeesssss.....This is my brain :) Careful.......You may trip over a stalagmite............And exit stage left.