SO guess what I did today??!!
Well my day started off absolutely friggin normal, awesome right? Well....Of course it didnt stay that way for long because my life is like a lifetime movie on repeat. I got fitted for my oh so sexy Aspen collar, yeah buddy! Then I decided I havent had a cheat day in two weeks, I'm gonna go get me some long john silvers (yes I'm a classy bitch). It was pretty close to heavenly, I didnt regret it for a minute. Such a tasty heart attack in a trendy lil box.
I get back home I'm playing some angry birds and throwing the stank eye at my developmental psychology books. Yes, I should have been studying but I was letting my food digest. Even I'm rolling my eyes at that one. So the time is passing and I expect my lil guy to walk in the door. Nope I get a text at 4 oclock saying you can pick up your son at 6pm on christmas night, like he's making a ransom deal, who does that?!! He snatched him from school, he didnt tell me, he didnt tell Austin. I'm not going to elaborate on that because it's straight embarrassing that I have a child with someone like that. GODDD was I stupid!! Anyway, long story short my cheat meal turned into a cheat marathon and now I feel like a chubby banana slug cloaked in self loathing. Then my phone didnt ring but it did, well I got a text that said I just called you, so I called this lovely soul back and low and behold somebody else had a cheat marathon.... hooray I feel less self loathing but still feeling like a chubby banana slug.
So here are my feelings about binge mania 2012
Well my day started off absolutely friggin normal, awesome right? Well....Of course it didnt stay that way for long because my life is like a lifetime movie on repeat. I got fitted for my oh so sexy Aspen collar, yeah buddy! Then I decided I havent had a cheat day in two weeks, I'm gonna go get me some long john silvers (yes I'm a classy bitch). It was pretty close to heavenly, I didnt regret it for a minute. Such a tasty heart attack in a trendy lil box.
I get back home I'm playing some angry birds and throwing the stank eye at my developmental psychology books. Yes, I should have been studying but I was letting my food digest. Even I'm rolling my eyes at that one. So the time is passing and I expect my lil guy to walk in the door. Nope I get a text at 4 oclock saying you can pick up your son at 6pm on christmas night, like he's making a ransom deal, who does that?!! He snatched him from school, he didnt tell me, he didnt tell Austin. I'm not going to elaborate on that because it's straight embarrassing that I have a child with someone like that. GODDD was I stupid!! Anyway, long story short my cheat meal turned into a cheat marathon and now I feel like a chubby banana slug cloaked in self loathing. Then my phone didnt ring but it did, well I got a text that said I just called you, so I called this lovely soul back and low and behold somebody else had a cheat marathon.... hooray I feel less self loathing but still feeling like a chubby banana slug.
So here are my feelings about binge mania 2012
- I need to cope with my emotions better
- Eating shitty food is not going to make me feel better
- Extra food is extra baggage
- I'm going to slip up
- Start making better choices now
- Find a way I can relieve stress without running :(
- Thank god I can breathe and walk and talk and love and smile...etc :)
- UNDERSTAND A LOT OF THINGS ARE OUT OF MY CONTROL !!!!!!!
