It's called life mother fucker!!!

I just had a stare down with my own reflection in the mirror.

 I had a million different emotions I wanted to spew at myself but I just stood there and stared at myself not sure what to do.

If I cry is that going to change anything....nope

If I scream is that going to change anything.....nope.

I just stood there almost egging myself on...what are you gonna do, that's right, you're not going to.... do.... a..... damn..... thing..... are you??!!!

It was as if something inside of me just gave up, like it understood that I had nothing left to give and if I let myself feel anything more at that moment I may never come back.

So, I just continued to stare and understood that another small part of my innocence died.

I'm not writing this as a sad tale or a poor me or even that I'm upset by it cause I'm not at this moment.

I think it was just more of a realization than anything else.  I'm tired of hiding all the emotion and weird shit I do......so I wrote it here to get rid of it.......

Maybe you understand and can relate, or maybe you don't but I feel more enlightened and that was the goal.....so woop deee freaking dooooo.

-LiL MiSS